365 blog.

Here's my attempt at my 365 blog that I'll probably forget about soon enough anyway.

January 1, 2010
An extremely sucky way to start off the new year. I think I cried at least half the day, and creid myself to sleep that night. Life as a 15 year old sometimes just has to suck. Highlight of the day?-Nick Jonas and The Administration's music video for Who I Am.
WHO I WONT BE ABLE TO SEE ON TOUR THIS JANUARY EVEN THOUGH IT WOULD WORK OUT PERFECTLY.
FML.
I shouldnt be this upset, but I know one morning, Im going to wake up, and everything is going to be slowly falling apart. When it does, Im not going to be able to say I was apart of this side project. I want to be a part of it. I want these memories.

Tired, lonely, without a cause
Only they are keeping me together
They hold the pieces
I am no longer in charge.
Happiness determined by others
Simple actions, touching words, bittersweet memories.
A story with a beginning and middle
But all stories must end
What happens when the one thing keeping me together
Falls apart?

ALA
Copyright January 2010

Because sometimes, music is the only reason I'm still here.
Now Playing: Vanilla Twilight-Owl City. "Because when I think of you, I don't feel so alone."

January 2, 2010
Slept 14 hours last night, and I'm still broken.
I should be doing my health/comp lit. exam but I'm not. Heck I should have finished it weeks ago, but I didn't. I looked at my friend's pictures from NYE in Hershey, more memories I didnt get to make. I just want the experiences. I want to be able to tell my kids about the fun things I got to do when I was younger, and hopefully help them do what they want to do.. I promise myself right now, that when I have grown, married, and have had children, I will do everything in my power to make their dreams come true.

Now Playing: Don't Tell Anyone-Jonas Brothers
I wrote this lyrics for you
All by myself
What makes you think I need you
or anybody else
But when you see me walkin'
Just starin' at my feet
'cuz I'm not all about you
I'm already complete

I hope this doesn't make you cry
But I don't wanna make you mine
I told you for the millionth time
That I don't need you in my life

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

I woke up thinkin' of you
And that weirds me out
I try hard not to call you
But I can do without
Hearin' your voice sayin'
that I am on your mind
It wouldn't work to rush this
I'll come around in time

I hope that you can understand
Right now I don't know where I stand
I'd rather hide behind this walls
Pretendin' I don't care at all

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

Life keeps going on
The world keep spinnin' round
Can't we stop going in circles?
Am I afraid of what they'll say
Or too confused to see
You and me?

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

The lyrics you write sing my story. Quote me.