cold showers and little sleep.

January 5, 2010

That picture up there? My story right now...

I don't feel like blogging about yesterday, but this is my 365 blog, not my 364 blog.
Not one of my friends uploaded NJ&TA pictures, but I saw a few videos.
Our hot water heater is still out, so I showered at my grandmas.
I finished my homework, then fell asleep.
Fun times right?
What. A. Life.

Now Playing: Amazed by Lonestar
I'll post all the lyrics so my post will look longer, and besides, they're amazing. ;)

This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

Solo

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

xoxoxo
SP

days behind.

I'm still one day behind.
If i dont get back on track, its going to bother me. A lot.

January 4, 2009
First day back to school after a two weak break? Not all that great.
I HATE mornings. I only wake up early if i absolutely have to, or if there is something to do that I LOVE. That meaning, if I was an internationally famous music artist, I would be more than happy to wake up on a tour bus completely confused and in a different city than where I shut my eyes. I wouldnt sleep at all if it meant sharing my music with adoring fans.
or you know, webchating with my rockstar boyfriend half way across the country (or in the next bus over).
Whatever.
Friends of mine traveled to NashVegas to see my NickyJay, so I did what I usually do every tour, and cracked the passwords to Hoffman's M&G pics.
Looking through three shows, I recognized a few girls, one of which had an adorable picture with him. I know this girl lives in Texas, and must be given many opportunities. The chick is everywhere, honestly, I've seen her meet the JB and many other celebrities tons of times. I think Ive practically seen her grow up.
......awkward.
Anyway, Nick looks the same in every single picture except for maybe like, 6. They are all posed in the exact same (awkward sometimes) way and he wears the same almost (not really) "smile".
Nick with kids, on the other hand=adorable. He looks so happy. He will one day make a wonderful father.

Clips from Kevin and Danielle's wedding were on Access Hollywood. I tried really hard not to die. I would have given anything to be in the same room as the guests invited. I legit replayed the video 20 times just to see who all I could spot. Bruno, Chelsea, Demi, Ned, Mandy, Mikey, Nicole, just to name a few other than the obvious.
Joe and Nick dancing with Katie and Dina made my night. Katie and Dina are both seriously adorable, I couldnt even handle Katie and Joe busting loose. And, yes, I did just say "busting loose". Nick looked so happy. I just want to see him happy.
Kevin looked so happy, Danielle looked so happy, Joe looked so happy. I want them all happy.
Then Playing: The Way You Make Me Feel by Michael Jackson
"The Way You Make Me Feel, You Really Turn Me On, You Knock Me Off Of My Feet, My Lonely Days Are Gone"

Now what's going to happen to me when you get married? I sure hope you're waiting at the end of the aisle for me.

So, now, as I sit in class listening to my teacher drone on, I think about where I could have been yesterday, and where I actually was.
o u c h .punch.in.the.gut.
The only thing getting me through this day are my friend's pictures and videos I'll be able to watch, and pretend I was actually there.



Sorry if I butcher the lyrics below, they arent yet released and neither is the studio version, most videos of it are not that great of quality.
It breaks my heart to know and understand he could write a song like that. I just want him happy.

Now Playing: Vesper's Goodbye by NJ&TA. expect this to replay sometime soon.
"Slowly turning back, like a bullet through the chest. Lay me down to rest, 'till lover's the final breath.
And then I kissed your tender lips goodbye,
Pray to God who hears if I cry..."

already behind.

well oops.
look at that, already behind on on my 365 blog. Anyone surprised? Anyone?
shut up SP?
Just blog Sp?
okay.

January 3, 2010

I woke up this morning with the trending topics as follows:
1. #JoeJonasDay
2. #KevinisHeaven
4. #NickJRockedit
7. #BonusJonas

Seems like "Jonas fans are a force to be reckoned with" ;)
I say next time, we try to get a #PapaJonas and #CBO trending too. Parental love, you know?
AND AND AND... NJ&TA concert videos were up, so you can probably tell how most of my afternoon was spent.
Anyway, the rest of the day was boring, I did homework and worked on my Health/Computer exam until it was time for my mom's side of the family's extended Christmas party. I also tries to tattoo the words "Who I Am" on my finger exactly like Nick Jonas does in his tour book, but for some reason it's backwards. Like totally backwards, so the picture must be somehow reflected because right now, my finger looks like it says "MHO I VW". sweetlife<3

so all awkward christmas parties are just like eachother so im not going to get too much into that...

Desperate Housewives returned for a season, and I was able to catch the end of the Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus Best of Both Worlds 3D Concert Movie.
Happy Camper.
The night ended poorly and I was flooded with thoughts. I miss 2009, this 2010 isnt working out for me.

Now Playing: State of Emergency by NJ&TA
"She's seductive, she does it well. She'll charge you by the hour for a straight trip down to hell..."
gosh Nicky, you're making me blush..

xoxoxo
SP

365 blog.

Here's my attempt at my 365 blog that I'll probably forget about soon enough anyway.

January 1, 2010
An extremely sucky way to start off the new year. I think I cried at least half the day, and creid myself to sleep that night. Life as a 15 year old sometimes just has to suck. Highlight of the day?-Nick Jonas and The Administration's music video for Who I Am.
WHO I WONT BE ABLE TO SEE ON TOUR THIS JANUARY EVEN THOUGH IT WOULD WORK OUT PERFECTLY.
FML.
I shouldnt be this upset, but I know one morning, Im going to wake up, and everything is going to be slowly falling apart. When it does, Im not going to be able to say I was apart of this side project. I want to be a part of it. I want these memories.

Tired, lonely, without a cause
Only they are keeping me together
They hold the pieces
I am no longer in charge.
Happiness determined by others
Simple actions, touching words, bittersweet memories.
A story with a beginning and middle
But all stories must end
What happens when the one thing keeping me together
Falls apart?

ALA
Copyright January 2010

Because sometimes, music is the only reason I'm still here.
Now Playing: Vanilla Twilight-Owl City. "Because when I think of you, I don't feel so alone."

January 2, 2010
Slept 14 hours last night, and I'm still broken.
I should be doing my health/comp lit. exam but I'm not. Heck I should have finished it weeks ago, but I didn't. I looked at my friend's pictures from NYE in Hershey, more memories I didnt get to make. I just want the experiences. I want to be able to tell my kids about the fun things I got to do when I was younger, and hopefully help them do what they want to do.. I promise myself right now, that when I have grown, married, and have had children, I will do everything in my power to make their dreams come true.

Now Playing: Don't Tell Anyone-Jonas Brothers
I wrote this lyrics for you
All by myself
What makes you think I need you
or anybody else
But when you see me walkin'
Just starin' at my feet
'cuz I'm not all about you
I'm already complete

I hope this doesn't make you cry
But I don't wanna make you mine
I told you for the millionth time
That I don't need you in my life

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

I woke up thinkin' of you
And that weirds me out
I try hard not to call you
But I can do without
Hearin' your voice sayin'
that I am on your mind
It wouldn't work to rush this
I'll come around in time

I hope that you can understand
Right now I don't know where I stand
I'd rather hide behind this walls
Pretendin' I don't care at all

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

Life keeps going on
The world keep spinnin' round
Can't we stop going in circles?
Am I afraid of what they'll say
Or too confused to see
You and me?

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

But you can see through me
How you get to me
You know I'm just a fraud
I'm just afraid, I feel the same
But don't tell anyone
Don't tell anyone

The lyrics you write sing my story. Quote me.

:D Marshmallow~

Revisiting the old confessions blog, possibly because Alex Noyes started up his again. I could blog about my glamorous secret popstar life, my fans, my love interests, my upcoming projects...

but I'll probably just talk about how my ten year old sister and I made about a hundred baby cupcakes and danced to kpop music videos about marshmellows last night.




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_6WgsXMXkE


but hey, in my world, it's the same thing.
almost.

xxoxoox
SP

RIP MILEY’S TWITTER

We miss you on twitter; we thought you were just hacked
Then we all got the message saying you aint coming back
Yeah you got two million, that’s 2 million who care
Whether you’re playing with Noah or just doing your hair
Now we don’t know your story, we can never be you
But all those crazy rumors, we know they’re not true
Yeah you’re stuck in the spotlight, believe me I know
Its not like you can go home after every show
You’re on stage and in movies, your names up in lights
But you gotta roll with the punches, keep up with the fight.
There’s always gonna be haters so why waste your time
You said it yourself; hey life-it’s a climb
You’re stronger than that, girl you don’t need to hide
You’re are at the top for a reason, hold on to your pride.

Peace out yo. I am MC SP. Word to your mother’s sister.

xoxo
SP

YO, YOU’RE GREAT AND IMMA LETCHU FINISH…

Really Kanye, really? This is old news by now, but those “imma letchu finish” jokes will NEVER get old. At least not to me. Now I’m not a big TSwift fan. Let’s just say, we’ve had some unfortunate run-ins, misunderstandings, cage fights, the usual…

Anyway, I felt bad he stole her thunder, that’s a big thing when you’re like 19 or something. That girl must have a lot of tear drops on her guitar by now. I’m honestly surprised there wasn’t some kind of myspace video with Barbies and crap.

xoxox
SP